If you touch me in punishment, I can tell you I'm not a nigger and you're shit.
Lots of problems, actually people impersonating that they got a message from Ellen DeGeneres, like I notice a black van go by and 2 red cars.
I have some disappeared videos of me that looked good, and now they're gone. I suspect Ellen DeGeneres talked to someone about it. I record myself watching her show, and I mean you can't just shit at me for it. I'll never know if we're supposed to. I don't know @ asking for copyright because they'll act like they don't care.. You do have to advertise what you can and cannot do that isn't perfectly clear, so you just get shit, shit. Don't mean to call any 1 person that, too bad if someone would do that.
I was walking singing again for like an hour, probably 40 minutes at my pace, normally 45. I got mad at what I saw and sang loudly sending out my message of hate, and I even felt I was throwing off if Ellen DeGeneres really is sneaking around me, insulting me for shit .. just sorta like it's a trap. I know she's picky, but I mean I'm uncomfortable anyway.
I'm just worried @ if when I feel like I'm hurting someone, they'll just "do it." Ellen DeGeneres and Helena Bonham Carter with Nell are annoying, Ellen if she does, because they think because of the stupid n word thing with Nell that they are teaching us to be strong by being weak. I don't mind and think it's can be healthy.
She's just antsy over nothing. She'll flip the idea and say oh well other people will do something to you. Oh, but it doesn't matter if it's okay.
Not to be rude, but I also had lunch with my dad, then I went out for my walk in running sneakers, from Wal-Mart, just cheap 1s for girls.
Friday, May 24, 2013
Una Problema
You're the mean, stuck up, nigger 1 making fun of me in my room, I am not a NIGGER YOU PIECE OF SHIT.
I SAID SHUT UP
I SAID SHUT UP
Una Problema
I do not mind Ellen DeGeneres having fun, but I will not allow her to be actually m*******, you. Ya'll are nothin', see? It's all @ that 1 Nell Burton.
Una Problema
See, you're just a sissy, won't stop for nothin'. I wasn't even trying to think @ you.. LEAVE ME ALONE I felt a pain in my sides, like white gooey sticky puss, like in front. OMG you cannot do that. Let's see if you want a taste of your own medicine, now. JUST SHUT UP YOU DODO whatever you are whoever the lot you are
Una Problema
Just like my cousin, you do something, and when I want to get to it, you act like it was something else innocent.
Una Problema
Hey, stop picking on me. I will not f*ck like a 1950 person in a bad mood. I just got a late text from my dad saying, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY." You know, police use all caps.. I had texted him yesterday @ my mom, like I said here, and he texted back. I was gonna text again but was busy. I don't wanna look for this sh*t.
wut. 8|
But I'm enjoying myself and being nice to nice people. You cannot, absolutely, cannot discriminate against my dad, except when he's a little nasty and course. What will we do when we die? Imagine someone dying too young not having fully lived "life." That's the kind of thing I like from my dad!
What should I say for you? I have no love in my life.. I'm stuck with a room messed up and I don't know if I can make it right. I can, but how long will it be? I do literally have love in my life, but in a way I am always darted from. My mom sometimes is motherly. I looked or felt shorter today than her. I am not sure why I needed to bring up that fact. I know people take from my life and say they need more attention and say it's from race. Um, I don't mean it in a flippant way, just melancholy and sorrow. I really don't get it. I can't provide for people racially, but I am very concerned about things being fair. 3I
What should I say for you? I have no love in my life.. I'm stuck with a room messed up and I don't know if I can make it right. I can, but how long will it be? I do literally have love in my life, but in a way I am always darted from. My mom sometimes is motherly. I looked or felt shorter today than her. I am not sure why I needed to bring up that fact. I know people take from my life and say they need more attention and say it's from race. Um, I don't mean it in a flippant way, just melancholy and sorrow. I really don't get it. I can't provide for people racially, but I am very concerned about things being fair. 3I
Una Problema
People are so mean to me. Like oh I am from this romantic place in the South for white people. I would know that being from there, myself. They do things and think they're kidding but not. I'm not gonna be a stark, overly-stressed individual for anyone. I am from the South and my race gets in the way. Look for someone from Europe if you wanna see the past recreated.. aha ha ha, I mean if that's what it is to you all.
Una Problema
It's hard for me to be sorry for you if .. if .. if .. I'm so fat and hungry and uncomfortable. It won't tick.
What I'm up To
So, plan is now to clean my room. I'm too tired for floor workouts. The walking is draining fat.
Who I Am, Already
Look, it's already a rule that I'm from the South but funny my mom isn't from non-South U.S. It's just what I am. I have happy relatives with moms from Pennsylvania, and we get along in things. I'm being beat around by Chloe Grace Moretz and Maggie Elizabeth Jones and maybe the Fannings, all girls with fair hair from Georgia, where there's huge mountains with snow and the real woods. No woods in Louisiana and no mountains.
(I'm unsure, exactly, no proof.. /: I coulda sworn when I was in New Orleans, I mean..xp)
(I'm unsure, exactly, no proof.. /: I coulda sworn when I was in New Orleans, I mean..xp)
WWYD
I feel I'm being made fun of. If you meet someone racist, what would you do? I'd leave the room.
I don't think these stuck up Southerners give a care @ me. They do, but I'm left feeling nothing and probably m*********** or c***** from having good ole Pennsylvania blood.
You can't keep doing this because of the n word incidence. You find out something with me that's good and then all of a sudden you've landed somewhere else, on a spot that's featured elsewhere. I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings in how I write. I don't have problems with my older relatives.
I don't think these stuck up Southerners give a care @ me. They do, but I'm left feeling nothing and probably m*********** or c***** from having good ole Pennsylvania blood.
You can't keep doing this because of the n word incidence. You find out something with me that's good and then all of a sudden you've landed somewhere else, on a spot that's featured elsewhere. I don't mean to hurt anyone's feelings in how I write. I don't have problems with my older relatives.
Una Problema
I wonder what the point is, this time, cuz I don't feel good. You expected Ginny to hate me. She wouldn't come up to me and tell me not to use the bathroom. I take voice lessons from her now and don't go. You know, her mom is Californian. What about me? How am I not that interesting? I didn't do anything to deserve to be humiliated. Why's she teach? I don't have anyone, and she seemed to like me. I can take her class at another community college. The kids in the class aren't that interesting in an attractive way. I do agree, thinking @ it, if I don't get let back into the class what it'd be like. I'm waiting for a note. I'll have to see someone @ Lakeside. What's wrong with chosing classes from a teacher you like?
Una Problema
I was just sitting in my room, all lonely, and then I heard some random, unknown clicks.
Also, sometimes I feel bad and think silly things. Why hurt me for discomforts that came to me that should have come to someone else?
My arm hurts from "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," and I don't wanna feel stress. No one treats me normally. I just am open and not a robot.
Why was Ellen so mad today? That guy came on the show, and he seemed okay but I didn't like the way he made me feel. Everyone wants to think I'm Asian.
Also, -what about- my dad? If something makes you uncomfortable, you step away. I care about him, but I'm not emotionally close. He's not like that. He used to hug me when he got home, but he stopped maybe. I got fat. My mom stopped kissing me earlier. I liked the kiss better than the hug. It's too bad @ my brat brother. He's the total opposite, very awkward yet conforming.. He just never will listen to me, at all. He started going to Mom, .. xp at a young age instead of me but also to dad. He wanted to be raised like them like me. I also had some polishing from my grandma, quite enough perhaps. She moved down here awhile. She put it together for me.
What do I do that's so bad? You can't tell me to be submissive and reclused from communicating forwardly. I do whatever I want. I am 26, and no one else cares. Everyone is dangerous. They might think I deserve to be incapacitated. Those people kept telling me stuff that anyone knows doesn't matter and kicked me out. I never did anything to anyone. They were all mean to me!
Also, sometimes I feel bad and think silly things. Why hurt me for discomforts that came to me that should have come to someone else?
My arm hurts from "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," and I don't wanna feel stress. No one treats me normally. I just am open and not a robot.
Why was Ellen so mad today? That guy came on the show, and he seemed okay but I didn't like the way he made me feel. Everyone wants to think I'm Asian.
Also, -what about- my dad? If something makes you uncomfortable, you step away. I care about him, but I'm not emotionally close. He's not like that. He used to hug me when he got home, but he stopped maybe. I got fat. My mom stopped kissing me earlier. I liked the kiss better than the hug. It's too bad @ my brat brother. He's the total opposite, very awkward yet conforming.. He just never will listen to me, at all. He started going to Mom, .. xp at a young age instead of me but also to dad. He wanted to be raised like them like me. I also had some polishing from my grandma, quite enough perhaps. She moved down here awhile. She put it together for me.
What do I do that's so bad? You can't tell me to be submissive and reclused from communicating forwardly. I do whatever I want. I am 26, and no one else cares. Everyone is dangerous. They might think I deserve to be incapacitated. Those people kept telling me stuff that anyone knows doesn't matter and kicked me out. I never did anything to anyone. They were all mean to me!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
How'd'you feel?
Do you ever stare into space .. when I do, I just feel more blank and fuzzy..like I'm not really using my eyes..
Happi
Yay! I get to watch Ellen ♥
*a ha*
Naw, I am not just a wittoo baby, .. I am a princess - I am an immortal god ;D named Xina
*a ha*
Naw, I am not just a wittoo baby, .. I am a princess - I am an immortal god ;D named Xina
We Will Not
Don't make me feel *** with my dad for some unimportant reason. We will not let you be the kid, in a way, a certain way. I'm mad @ something, and of course do not know..
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Watcha Want
Supposedly, when people know me, they -want- at my dad all of a sudden, for free.
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Hairspray Hairspray ) ) )
I got spray to lighten my hair over a day or few..
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Hee Hee Hee
My parents are more like my brother than me. Too bad. They don't care @ me. I'm big. :(
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Una Problema
He bumped up my meds when I was asking for water. Didn't say anything @ what .. Stop being mean to me bc of liking famous people all of a sudden. Who is nice diligent Ms Christina? You made a nightmare no? Hmph, what @ what you do to the unfortunates? Who's left in the cold!
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Una Problema
It actually hurts me in any way if someone likes someone such as Nell Burton over me.
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Una Problema
My parents don't have feelings, so what can I feel for? You can't all be mean and me not back.
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Una Problema Mucha Grande!
A psychiatrist would diagnose anyone. This is not aa behavioral junction.
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Una Problema
I don't give a s*** @ kids my age's inklings for annoying drama.
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Una Problema
My mom is annoying. I can't get over it. She is being suggestive. I don't have friends.
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Una Problema
Stop telling me I have an attitude and taking pleasure to make fun of me. It's up to you to understand the world.
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Una Problema
My mom was hurting me, and I felt bad @ some others. My part Italian therapist and an Asian.
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Una Problema
Well, I wondered @ something. Why do people keep bullshitting @ me?
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Una Problema
So, why do you vie for bad kids? What else.. I mean, I feel all shook up. I do not do the things I heard people did. I just do what I'm supposed to and get slammed for thinking I'm a good person, like I have all these positive dispositions. So, what, sit here and I guess rant @ my endless problems, which hopefully will be rectified.
Una Problema
My mom will get in trouble for her random attitude. I am trying to protect myself and am tired with a messy room. Hm, oh, some other kid who's irresponsible or has a neat play room wouldn't get this treatment. My mom would be like cute better than Christina, and "Christina's Mongoloid! ;D"
Una Problema
You wanna leave off obsessed with nothing? I mean, I can't even be a fan of Tim Burton because of his disposition with his precious daughter. Everyone's onto her. Everyone's onto her. Who says you get the last word in? It's probably a lie. I'm not some Baby Boom joke.
YES, I care @ Nell Burton deeply. I just feel everyone's using her to annoy me!! And then I get mad. She is so cute and precious with her lovely mother. Ya'll should just leave her alone. I was always nice to her. I'm upset, though, like everything's about her being better, not exactly, but I just feel she thinks she gets to be racist to people like me like Johnny Depp. I know she's a bit young, too, though, so. It shouldn't be a big deal, but I mean other people who are losers have kids and cling to me annoyingly. I never came on here to hurt anyone! Everyone has bothered me so much with that little girl.. Saying like ooh Christina you suck. I swear I didn't come online like this. Everyone is calling me crap for flunking out.
Oh, you still wanna rub in that I depend on people to give up something with their kids to give me attention? Huh? Huh? What? I'm not mad. I'm not some dweeb who sits at their computer and looks for negative connotations in the truth of the English language-
I mean, what? Look, I ain't got no friends, and my family already disowned me but come back to hurt me, you know in various ways. Nothing like flat out illegal, so don't go calling 911 for they will not help. I dunno, I mean, people always say it's @ their kids and I don't feel I have that problem. I just feel exposed and picked at. Yea, it probably is an issue that someone's kid isn't like their parents. Why do attractive parents have trashy kids? Vice versa, more "Christian" parents, I just realized have attractive, well-liked kids.
YES, I care @ Nell Burton deeply. I just feel everyone's using her to annoy me!! And then I get mad. She is so cute and precious with her lovely mother. Ya'll should just leave her alone. I was always nice to her. I'm upset, though, like everything's about her being better, not exactly, but I just feel she thinks she gets to be racist to people like me like Johnny Depp. I know she's a bit young, too, though, so. It shouldn't be a big deal, but I mean other people who are losers have kids and cling to me annoyingly. I never came on here to hurt anyone! Everyone has bothered me so much with that little girl.. Saying like ooh Christina you suck. I swear I didn't come online like this. Everyone is calling me crap for flunking out.
Oh, you still wanna rub in that I depend on people to give up something with their kids to give me attention? Huh? Huh? What? I'm not mad. I'm not some dweeb who sits at their computer and looks for negative connotations in the truth of the English language-
I mean, what? Look, I ain't got no friends, and my family already disowned me but come back to hurt me, you know in various ways. Nothing like flat out illegal, so don't go calling 911 for they will not help. I dunno, I mean, people always say it's @ their kids and I don't feel I have that problem. I just feel exposed and picked at. Yea, it probably is an issue that someone's kid isn't like their parents. Why do attractive parents have trashy kids? Vice versa, more "Christian" parents, I just realized have attractive, well-liked kids.
AURGH
I got up finally. My mom is being horny. I was upset at her attitude for no important reason, you know dirty room she made. Now, she's acting like some sick thing like she can hurt me becuse of it, a bit. She's chasing after me actively in the attitude she had as I grew up. She's pretending in utter joy to me to display others as hurt. You know, I don't give a fuck @ Nell Burton. People al only think @ her as the 1 to hurt you with. She looks like she thinks she's being nice and is better than everyone and hides it by annoying us..
Una Problema
My videos of me playing piano are deleted. I don't know where I put them, neither. I played the duets well. The song I made up showed piano skills.
Sunblock
I have 110 SPF spray sunblock. I feel more smooth and tan. I even had black on my arm. It's gray spots, the black-seeming stuff under or as my skin.
What I Think
Jennifer Anniston is a sweet girl. She doesn't seem to care about other people who want to have fun, racially. She did seem like she did, but I mean like with people as her peers. I mean, if I met her, I'd just have fun and think she was sweet but realize I was not for her because I'm sorta a normal person dunno..
Guess what?
Guess what we got? So, that bloody Jennifer Anniston whom I actually thought was good yet racist like everyone else to me tried to make her own head collide with Ellen DeGeneres's, but the problem was that she did it on purpose. What else was I gonna say? I dunno, I found her quite violent and schizophrenic. I supposedly have that. She was like mad .. didn't care @ Ellen, actually. I just don't have time for this shit, forgot what I was saying. I mean, she's cool. I like her, but I don't understand like why she likes what she likes.
So..Tell Me Watcha Wan'
Also, if I do something new, maybe I chose to be like a Late Boomer, and you're trying to take that away, the very simple wish. I don't just flat out want what you think of that but maybe.
Una Problema
I don't go coo coo and ka ka over Ellen DeGeneres's bowl of wisdom. Like those Chinesey tweens.
The Reason
The only reason I am mean to anyone is because of my race, being considered ugly Mongolian. I just said I only chose to act and be European. No one believes that. They might not say it. I know that's what they do. That's what they do to me.
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