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Una Problema

Did you ever consider you lied to me, were a liar?  People treat me casually and then I keep getting kicked outta school, sometimes more than once in the same school at the same situation or time.  My rule is you tell someone if you don't like what they did.  I just fear that they wouldn't tell me why they really suspended or dubbed "expelled" me meant.  I didn't do anything and said I was good at the meeting.  They're not being factual.  They wouldn't talk to me @ anything, just kicked me out and now I'm afraid I can't come back.  I might be excluded from what I wanted to take, even.

MAD

Why didn't the teacher tell me @ it before sending me somewhere?  I wasn't allowed back in, and I knew it was stupid.  They just didn't like me~

Next Semester

Maybe, I could just do singing and organ next semester.

Signing up @ School

It says that by August 8th is the deadline to appeal suspension.  I was told not expelled, but my therapist keeps saying that.  My mom said she talked to them later and they went on to say not to take the classes from Ginny, but then I have no point of going there since I'm in theater and didn't notice any music teachers I like..  So, I need a psychiatric note and to contact the school to ask who to contact.  So, there's June and July and I'll see that psychologist again and will schedule an appointment at Lakeside in June or July.  I mean, I don't have to take the classes this semester.  I'm not sure what she teaches the semester after, but I did feel awkward at the singing class.  Cleaning my room will make me feel better, though, got the bulk all done, just pickingup on my desk and the stuff still on the floor, tons of laundry.  I will also find out the Fall Registration deadline and later @ music class.  I will ask for an appointment at Lakeside straight away, in fact.  Okay, got the info. down, like to renew my PIN for FAFSA and all, not that I will get the aid.

Oh No

I am so dumb..anyway, I hate having to push on myself to get stimulated .. see I think that some of the things I posted on my blog were rather er disliked by some, but I explained what I meant.  Had a hard time.  Nell Burton is so like racist and stuck up to me!

Awake

6 Hours of Sleep.  I noticed my left pointer finger reminded me of being Italian, like a dark American 1.  I remember I think that was what my dream was about.  Maybe outside with some bubbly maybe exciting light blue with a hint of happy green.  We were outside, maybe lots of happy trees but like a park, not a forset or whatever|woods.

I was still very tired from the morning medicine I took when I woke up around 6 P.M.

Might find something for breakfast soon, tired and might go to bed, slept on couch.  The rest for me to clean already appears pretty possible, so it's like almost done.

Mobile

Auditions

"We are currently seeking performers for full time roles. We are not hiring performers for seasonal, summer-only work."

Suppa

a caviar-sized serving of Purple Potatos and onions and green peppers YUM with spiced up chicken, the smolest piece tha!

Una Problema

Are ya'll just hungry for *** saying I "aren't" this and that?  You just wanna hurt me by buckering up my parents in a suggestive fashion.  I heard it in the noisemaker.  Just informed my brother of the sounds I've heard that I like and that I had to put up with.  You know, though, it's things that aren't there like from this world.  I just don't want to turn into an experiment.. you know

On that fair note, I mean it could be fun.

LOLs

I do!  I do!  I love to play a game.  I don't really do anything wrong, and then when it comes time to shovel the creme from the crop, I make sure I get my deed in easy.  LOL.

cont.

WAH I just feel so embarrassed @ what I said yesterday..  I am humiliated by the mental health treatment being administered, I also said.  They wouldn't let me record.  So, I can't put it online..  I think he was thinking @ race, though?  Little Middle Eastern guy who looks more Caucasian but dark skin.  He is so brilliant, I like him so much.

He has problems but doesn't push on me as an Orlando weirdo like most people here.  Yea, he's like "Steve Carrell.." an actor for kids, he is, guessing, too..  This guy seems too nice.  Does spark me up reminds me of New Orleans..

So

I see I was a slob.

Unfortunately, I know I try hard to write what I do write, get mad @ stuff that pertains to serious things and relationships I am getting tired of wasting my life online complaining @..

Morning?

5 Hours of Sleep

I had a weird dream, like a track and I was going into a room on the side, had escaped something I thought of.  I went through the door again, made it, and was escaping somehow said something.  It was someone who didn't seem like Ellen DeGeneres but like was, then her mom said something like that's not the way to do it..never heard her talk, but my grandma would say that, I'm sure.  She's 2 years older than her mom.

I woke up remembering I got s'mores poptarts..often, I want something healthy, not sure what happened.  Yesterday, I had a salad from 711, not too much money, 2 slices of pizza from my birthday cash savings for Disney..

I'll probably take my medicine just to see what happens.  If it makes me too tired, might not be able to do it, we'll see, my room brings me down, now, almost done cleaning.  Don't know, might paint it.

Cleaned

Everything mostly is in place, just things I need to take out sometime, maybe soon maybe later.  Laundry, too, but have plenty of space, unhappy of all the documents I have to save still, maybe will go through them someday..

Una Problema

You can't play a game where every time something makes me mad you do something else important.  Get outta my face!  And no I did not just fuck you, I just said in a fun way what I said, "Get outta my face!"  I was even kidding @ as to what exactly I meant, I guess..  The problem was if it is about a feeling because using the feelings to connect saying something bad is not okay.  Stop playing around.  Why you so careful!  I have never had my life have problems like this.  No one talks to me, I'm bored, I forget what day of the week it is now but I don't fuck @ it cuz I just don't it's not interesting like that and would feel stupid and silly, not sure @ other people's problems.  Okay..

Need I go further?  I'm too tired.  Not trying to attack but just something I thought of or that was thought for me.  I'm interested in this not in me fucking like crazy.

Una Problema

I TOLD YOU TO STOP ACTING LIKE I'M AS OLD AS MY DAD!!!  WHAT'S YOUR FUCKIN' PROBLEM!!!  OLDIES

Ohhh

Oh, so, what my mom will be more where Nell is.  Is that another "funny" thing?  Does it happen to be the reason why?

All I Know

All I know is no matter what I do, I will always have people be mean and jealous at me like animals!