Saturday, May 25, 2013

Just Woke Up

9 hours of sleep.  Went straight for the granola cereal with milk + raisins were in it ... and then went to the bathroom and changed and got the toilet paper.  My hair is a mess, using Frizz Ease, again.

My dad was playing guitar.  I said Morning, with my ear plugs still on from the bath where I managed to cry.  I forget what the main feature was, but I don't think it was @ Ginny..

Now, I'm getting negative messages of things that you don't talk about.  I just figured something else.

Also, I was like phew I managed to be more civil, yesterday.  I'll probably live crying myself to sleep .. NIGGER lol  I don't get jealous so much as I get analyzational.  I analyze the holistic part of the situation.  You know what I thought of?  There are girls who are part of Ellen DeGeneres's show, and .. what forget .. and I thought of Nell Burton getting excited just to be #1, has no like stance as to why she gets attention and steals it from anyone, shouldn't be an adult at age 5 or 6..  Who cares?  I thought she was nice.  It's mostly you guys who favor her.  Makes me want to go violent..  I don't like being considered a nigger, at all, not even just the "dubbed" nigger.  Nell Burton is nothing.  You have other people in the world.

I also know if Ellen DeGeneres were to look at my table, she'd start feeling horny, if ya know what I mean.

I got so much cleaning done, seems like my room will soon be clean.  Can't believe I have these extra books.

I realize I went manic over Ginny getting me in the hospital.  I didn't do shit.  I told those niggers what I did, I didn't do nothin.  The teacher NEVER TOLD ME DO YA HEAR YOU PIECES OF GODDAMN SHIT