Friday, May 24, 2013

The Trick

WTF do you mean tricking me into calling her a nigger just to make her not fear the word and then I go to the mental hospital 3 times and lose my own female thing, unsure if it is true, 2 brain scans.  No relations, my life meaningless in the whole world.  }8

I'm serious, there is nothing left in my life but that I learned to be more reserved, even still.

It's hard to put into words just how different life is and how much hatred I must spew.  I came home all happy from college, such a thick female thing, such a good thing, didn't feel much pain though, just at home resting.  I was thinking of not going to college to post online @ "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory."  I didn't see ads for "Pirates of the Caribbean" so was out of the loop, 2003, graduated 2004.

I lost my health forever by being placed in a sorta experimental life with people making noises and doing things on my computer, like how things load, I was on a strict, hard diet and had to consume a lot of health food..  They used to have special "health food" so advertised, little meals for people thinking they'll lose weight just changing to do that.  Doing 1 thing can make you fat but not like say singing hopefully, dunno, like Ellen DeGeneres.

I feel like someone crept behind like to *i** me.

Now, I cannot get back my health.  The experiment put me off-guard, my strict diet.  I suffered so much not wanting to do lectures nor reading.  I was always the shy, sweet 1 when I was a young kid, like 9, 10, 11.  Then, I got a bit ugly.

There's more, I'm sure.  xp

Now, I eat whatever I want but not like badly too too much.  I'm staying off chicken and rice some..the healthiest thing we ate.  Dunno, for sure..  People need to take me as I come, all grown up.  I feel like I need more food.  Like, you have an infant, they eat and they move.  I want to know more about this.  I wanted to live on baby food at 19.

What else?  8>--O